Improper Hope?
December 5, 2011I typed this out very quickly on my phone last night and accidentally published. After un-publishing, I decided to clarify one sentence and just leave it the way it was. Welcome to my brain (minus all the stuff my fingers had no hope of keeping up with).
Hoping to have celiac disease.
Wait… Hoping to be sick?
Does it betray true hope?
Does it betray hope for complete healing?
I was once encouraged by someone well-acquainted with suffering to keep hope alive every day that it would be the day that I am healed.
Is this contradictory?
It seems like such a small sacrifice, though, giving up gluten.
I just want an answer. I know I am sick.
Perhaps I only want to know that I have been suffering from a gluten intolerance. I KNOW I have been suffering.
I don’t want it to continue, but hoping for a label is not hoping for permanence.
Tricky thing is the fact that I would be unlikely to test it out in the future.
How does God feel about allergies?
